august 25, 2023

this one is produced by my talented pal aabo; it’s definitely one of my favorites. i was feeling creatively blocked during this session, but eventually found inspiration through reflecting on a bad relationship. we argued so much and i wanted to break up all the time, but i was just young and anxious and co-dependent as fuckkkk. this song is about me finally leaving for the betterment of myself. it was so bittersweet, but the power i subsequently gained is invaluable. i found confidence in me again. i made ‘nice’ after that. i grew. yay.

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the video was directed by my dawg elijah! it’s always fun and easy to work with friends; i’m grateful he gets the vision. sending a big thank you to him, paperwork studio, & eqt for their parts in bringing everything to life. 3/3.

makeup by my sweet pea starrza :-*

it’s not feeling good anymore (prod. aabo) lyrics

03/04/22 5:18 pm

we been here before

we gon talk in circles

till we’re purple

jumping hurdles

proving points feels like i’m

winning a war

& it’s not feeling good anymore

we honeymoon phased out (yeah)

it’s testing my faith now (right)

we could only get thru the real rough times

if the both of us stay down

i just wanna be healthy

even if u left me

cuz what if this goes bad?

then there goes our 20s

yeah maybe we’re wasting our youth

& maybe we’re facing hard truths

i think we’re nearing the end

cuz all we do is argue

and both of us gotta be right

and both of us always feels like

the other is missing the point

and then it becomes a real fight

we been here before

we gon talk in circles

till we’re purple

jumping hurdles

proving points feels like i’m

winning a war

& it’s not feeling good anymore

we been here before

we gon talk in circles

till we’re purple

jumping hurdles

proving points feels like i’m

winning a war

& it’s not feeling good anymore

i don’t wanna fake it

i can’t take it

we should just be done

i can’t be evasive

i’ll just say it:

look, we had our fun

i think we need to face it

hope we can stay gracious

but i can’t spend my days with someone who i know is not the one

i don’t wanna fake it

i can’t take it

we should just be done

i can’t be evasive

i’ll just say it:

look, we had our fun

think we need to face it

hope we can stay gracious

i can’t spend my days with someone who i know is not the one

bts photos by daniel hermosillo <3